Reality

I did myself a favour today, I went through my inboxes and outboxes on both my email accounts as well as my phone. Not one of those two so-called friends ever sent me anything really encouraging. I hardly got phone calls. My outboxes were filled with messages to tell them to hang on and that I was thinking about them. Now I know I'm demanding and selfish, but I don't expect more from people than what I am willing to give. So here is the deal, they are leeches, they suck all the energy from me, without a backward glance as to how I am feeling, what I am going through.

So, fuck the guilt feelings!! I am better than the two of them combined, even when drunk...hiehie.

At least I have a grip on reality most of the time. As I said on facebook, I got rid of dem bad apples. And yes, he did sort of treat me like a whore, he just pretended to care, time I face that one.

And now I'm getting into bed, its freezing!!