Paralyzed By Fear

I don't know if it's the time of the year or just that I've been shaken a little, but I've been going through the spectrum of emotions in a matter of minutes. It's got me on edge. I don't know what to do, where to turn, which direction to go. I'm paralyzed by this and I know I must do something before the fear completely takes over and I get stuck in a place where I don't want to end up. I've just been living with the status quo for so long that it has become my reality. And it feels like the carpet has been pulled from under me, my safety net is gone. I'm in a perpetual state of panic with nothing to panic about. I'm scared with nothing to be afraid of except changing my views of myself. I'm a creature of comfort and this whole experience is driving me to the brink of madness. I burst into tears for no reason. My heart skips a beat for no reason. I feel happy and excited for no reason. And it scares the living daylights out of me, immediately throwing me into panic attack mode and crazy bitch overdrive. Times like these I want to scream stop the ride I want to get off, but it won't help. I'm drowning and I've forgotten how to swim. And not a soul in the world can do a thing about this but me and I'm terrified.