LUNCH MUSINGS

Ahh, one good thing, the assignment is finished and mailed. Now I only have 3 more and one of them is statistics, which I'm terrible at, its the 4th time I'm taking it and I have to pass it this year.

I'm in weird place at the moment. I can't really figure out what I feel or how to behave. Had a huge argument with the Dad last night, was busy on the blog, and he was staring over my shoulder, wanting to know what I was doing. Now it is all good and well that I gave this site to certain friends and get visits through linkreferral, etc., but come on, I don't want them to know what my struggles are. They are worried enough and ageing quite rapidly, I don't want them to stress more. Also, I don't want to have to explain myself about these musings. It is to get it out of my system, not to worry them. Hopefully the game drive today will relax him.

Seriously glad the bro from Oz is here. Takes a lot of tension from me and my mom. Old men are too much, and to think I looked after them in England. Probably was easy because they are not family.

I've been thinking about my life again, and want I want from it. I have to start organising my finances to be able to move to Cape Town. Why does a credit card just take so long to get paid off? I have destroyed it, so haven't been using it for ages, but the amount on the statement just doesn't disappear.

Got some advice from a friend who says I should write down all the things I want and send it to the angels. Its time I start doing that...

Oh, and on the finances thing, I AM going to take N$500 and go to the second-hand bookstore and get some amazing books again. Thats what I really miss from London, the bookstores. You could get anything, here you have to go through Amazon or such to find the cool books. Have just bought the Kite runner, and am going to start it as soon as I finished the current book...can't wait, it looks really good.

Anyhoo, this is/was my lunch break, which I finally spent not eating sweets (craving fudge again). You'd swear I'm pregnant!! Fortunately (or maybe not) impossible.

Since its 2, I'll have to log off now, and get back to the real world.