And how do you deal with this one. I sorta figured out I need a man, but I don't think just for sex. I really don't think I'll be able to cope with a one night stand at this point in time. I just need the physical contact from someone who cares for me.
But I won't get it, because that person does not exist, probably never has and never will. God this sucks. I don't know which way to turn anymore.
But honestly, if I look at my dad, I never want a man. He is a good man, yes, but if I end up in such a relationship as my parents have, I will surely kill someone, even if it has to be me. Its like a catch 22, I want it, but I also don't.
Aaarrrghhh!!! Someone save me from this hell that is my mind!!!!
And why do I have this feeling like everyone is lying to me????
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